Huge Announcements

First huge announcement is.....it's been exactly one year today since I met my little Aki, when she was sitting on a rug in the HBC club, mourning the passing of her kitty kat and we managed to start up a conversation. One year later (well one year minus a day) and my second huge announcement comes along. Today when chatting to her I finally got tired of hiding my feelings and proposed to her *pauses for the obligatory "awwwww"*

That's right, yesterday morning I asked her to marry me and be my partner, which I'm happy to report she said yes (so nyaa to all those that thought I would never partner with anyone ;p)

To be honest I really can't find the right words to describe how happy I am. Aki has always been there for me, when I was happy she was with me being happy (and most of the time was the cause of it), when I was sad or in need of help, she was there for me, letting me cry on her shoulder if I needed it and always there to tell me no matter how rotten things where, they were going to get better, and she was always right.

Since I'm still in a bit of a stupor I'll end this post here, but hopefully will have better words to describe it after a good sleep.

Thina =^-^=

A Little More Fun

This is one more I just had to share, I don't plan on doing this every day, but once in a while if I see something fun I'll share it with you all, and hope you like it as much as I do...if not oh well, I still think it's funny as hell ;p



Thina =^-^=

Just for fun

I just had to post this clip, I've seen it like a million times and it's way too funny not to share, hope you like it as much as I do ;p

A year Past

Ok so not exactly a year, actually a little longer since I joined SL, and a lot has happened to be sure, and yes I know I haven't said anything in a really, really long time.

The first thing to say, because I'm turning over a new leaf and being more honest, yes, in SL I am a shemale, yes offline I have my own set of gender issues, I'm not special, I'm not the only one, but I'm also not ashamed nor afraid of it, I'll work it all out in time, with the help of my wonderful friends that after so long, I'm finally letting them get closer to me.

A lot happened in that first year, good and bad, but I have few regrets and over all I enjoy my time. What it all comes down to is what I've found after so long, through my experiences, and what I've learned and what's important. All this time I thought I knew when i didn't have the slightest idea. I used to be consumed by depression thinking I was never happy, god how wrong I was. Let me tell you exactly what is important to me:

My girls: Yes I am a Mistress, but I'm more than that, I'm a switch, I have my sub side, and there are times that it takes control of me, but in the end, my girls are the most important to me, more so than anything else. They keep me sane, keep me laughing, and remind me that no matter how bad things get, I am loved. With that said; Aki, Cathy, Samm, even Shawna....as well as the ones that I'll be waiting for, Mobat, Tessia (Athena) and Ling...thank you from the bottom of my heart for staying by me through it all, being there to support me and make me laugh, and just for being you =D

My friends: There aren't enough words in the world to express how truly grateful all of you have been, it's why writing this part is so hard. All of you have put up with all the crap I've gone through, been there to listen, offer a different opinion, a nice warm hug, or whatever it took to put a smile on my face. You have all reminded me not to take for granted the simple pleasure of knowing you are loved and cared for. My friends list is incredibly long, but some names stick out more than others so to you; Raze, Trinity, Rubbergirl, Mystress Breiz, Michael, and last but sure as hell never least Izarix. I have a lot of friends, and they are all good ones, but you, all of you I've listed, you have been my true friends, when I'm feeling down, or really need a friend to lean on, I always knew I could come to you and you would be there for me, thank you, so very much.

To everyone that still looks in, even when there was nothing to see, I thank you, I will keep updating it off and on, hopefully more than before, maybe not, I won't promise something I can't deliver, but I thank you for reading.

~Hugz and kisses, and everything in between~
Thina Mistwood =^-^=

Warning: Depression!!!

You know, it's been a very very long time since I've posted anything, and there are various reasons behind it; some good, some bad, and some just born out of laziness. It's December (I know, hard to believe, time flies so fast), and it's nearing two, well actually three different anniversaries for me. The happy fun time one is near the end of the month, the 22nd to be accurate, that was my Rez day, and thinking back when i first entered SL, so much has changed and I realized that I'll never see SL for the first time ever again. The wonder and amazement, the thrill of something new and exciting, meeting new people, learning to create, most of all meeting one of my closest friends ever not more than three weeks into my explorations into SL (yeah I'm looking at you Raze ;p). She has known me the longest of anyone I've ever known in SL, she has been there with me through my ups and downs, put up with a lot of my whining, complaining, and just general being a pain in the ass (sometimes probably literally lol). So I want to say a very special thank you to you in particular hun, after all this time I honestly cannot imagine SL without ever having known you and I'll always be eternally grateful.

The other two anniversaries aren't quite as happy an joyful, the first one I want to mention, while it's sad, wasn't at all unexpected in a way. Back in 2008, the very end of the year, (December 31st to be particular) my grandmother passed away, the last living grandparent I had. It was the day before my birthday that it happened and it really hurt, but also, like I said, it wasn't unexpected. Grandma had been getting on in years, and the human species only lives for so long, and she had a long life with wonderful kids and even more wonderful grand kids, so while it was sad it was also a relief that she didn't have to go through anymore hospital visits and was able to somewhat slip away in the night so to speak.

There is one more reason why my grandmother's death was harder to take at the time, which leads to the third anniversary to bring up (if your easily upset, now is a good time to get a tissue). A few weeks prior to my grandma's passing, on December 9th, the woman that I had pledged my undying love to, had planned on spending the rest of my life with, had passed away from cancer. Those that know me well know that I've held on to it for good and bad for the past two years. It's lead me into the deepest pits of depression at times, causing me to loose focus in my school work, to abandon good and long time friends, even now those friendships hang by fragile threads. Tomorrow is the second year of her passing and only now have I finally been able to move on to a certain point, I still have good and wonderful friends to help me, a new love entering my life helping me to move on and be able to open up my heart again, which I honestly thought was going to be sealed away for good. I have wonderful pets that serve me faithfully and give me their love and support on a daily bases (yes I'm a Mistress, don't like it, get over it then).

Even now as I sit here typing I can feel tears of both sorrow and happiness, I lost someone very precious to me, and I will always hold her in my heart, but I also have someone to help me through my clouded thoughts at times serving as a rock to anchor myself to. Cathy I know I do not say it nearly often enough, but you mean the world to me, you have always known what to say to put a smile on my face, and I'll always cherish the second our paths crossed.

Thank you all for your continued support and care, your the best I could ask for, and far more than I deserve.

Love,
Thina Mistwood

What a night!

Wow, what a night, starting off with a Neko party (sponsored by yours truly) I had told Iz (a totally awesome woman, I can't even begin to tell you) that I would dance for them sometimes since they've been having a hell of a time keeping dancers. Well I didn't plan on making my re entry into Second Life dancing tonight, nor did I figure on being put front and center on the...errm...front and center pole either. Now between you and me I think it was a conspiracy between; Michael, Kresh, and my girl Cathy to get me naked on stage in front of probably the biggest crowd I had sen at Hidden Taboo.

At any rate, after that came an even more fun and interesting time. It was time to take my dolly Samm's soul, which she was giving to me on her own (yes I'm a vamp too, deal with it *giggles*). At any rate, Cathy and I had spent about an hour and a half to two hours preparing for the event, making sure everything was ready, right down to my clothing for the evening and some last minute retexturing in the dungeon. I honestly can't begin to say how beautiful the event was, not only the biting, but also that three, yes three of my girls were there in addition to Samm, to witness the event, sweet little Akilina, adorable Cathy, and lovely yet zany Mobat. It was so wonderful that if I'm not careful I'll start to repeat myself any second ;p

I wish I could right more on both events...but it is 10am and I've yet to sleep so time to curl up and pass out...ni ni all =^_^=

~hugz and kisses~

Thina

A New Look

I like change...often, as any that have seen my wardrobe can attest, so I figured it was high time to give this old place a new look along with a new perspective on things.

To put it plainly and bluntly, I love my girls, and I love my friends, and I love the work that I do in Second Life. It is these things that bring me back day after day, and minute after minute. Drama in Second Life is like an asshole...and excuses, everyone has one and they all stink (yes I know, it's really crude and in poor taste but it is also unfortunately accurate). My point is, drama is unavoidable no matter how you try, the trick is in how you deal with it, and the people you have by your side when it creeps it's nasty little head in, and I have been fortunate to be blessed with some of the bes friends anyone would have right to ask for, and not only my friends, but also my girls, they give me their support and strength when I need it with out question and always (or at least usually) with their complete trust in my judgement.

All my love to my girls, and to my friends, and a special one to a certain kitten, Kris

Thoughts on custom building

Hmm...where to start and still be fair...

Ok well first off, both Cathy (one of my girls) and I had been commissioned to build first one then a second house. Now to be fair, we both new the owner of the first house so both of us felt there would be little issues in building it and we were right, it went smoothly, he was patient, and pointed out things that we may have missed to fix, over all a very good experience. The second house however *shivers* was for one of his girls...well temporary girls anyway. At any rate, it started off relatively simple, a basement playroom, a first living floor and second bedroom floor with maybe a small dance area on the roof....that was when it was simple, but it all snowballed from there. Next thing we knew it was supposed to be four floors, a bigger dance floor and a playroom floating high in the air. To top it all off she was in a rather big rush, and we were both working frantically to finish it and keep her relatively happy.

At any rate, this has taught me, and reminded me that never again will I make anything custom without a firm plan in place as well as being able to take breaks without having to constantly have someone in my IM box begging me to finish quickly.

Ok that's my rant for today, next time I won't be so bitchy I promise ^^.

~Hugz and kisses and everything in between~

Thina

Far too long

Holy hell it's been way too long since I took the time to scribble a thought or two down, and so much has been going on that I wouldn't even know where to begin so best to say that I'm back, hopefully writing a little bit more once in a while when I can.

First thing I do want to say though is a hugenormous thank you to all of my wonderful friends and my wonderful girls. All of you combined are what make Second Life worth logging in to and I thank for each and every one of you.

There is one more thing I want to say, before drawing this short post to a close. I finally feel that I am making good on a promise I made nearly two years ago, I've spent a lot of time working in the back of my store, creating a charity area to sell random items and accept donations towards cancer research, and here again is where all my wonderful friends and my special girls come in to play, because they have been so supportive and helpful at every turn. They've always let me nag them and put up with my ramblings cause that's just how wonderful they all are.

I look forward to seeing all of you soon, and will do my best to add a note or two here every once in a while.

~Hugz and kisses, and everything in between~

Thina Mistwood

Thing's change over time

It has been far too long since I've posted again, mostly because a lot has happened, faced with the reality that Jessie cannot see me as her Mistress anymore, as well as me coming to terms with being a switch. However despite what at first was negative or sad, I am happy to say I was so totally wrong.

Jessie and I are still together, and to a certain extent she still is my little kitten, even if it is only once in a while or a limited fashion, I am always happy to be around her, and I don't need to have her on my leash to be happy, just to have her companionship. She will always hold a place in my heart, and I know I have a small home in hers, somewhere ^.~

It is also coming up on having owned Aki as my pet for a month, and what a month it has been, she is always a joy to see, and granted there have been a couple of rocky spots, and mostly overreactions by me, but I can confidently say that I have enjoyed and continue to enjoy all that I share with her...and the fact that her and Jessie play together...and sometimes bind each other and wait for me, just makes it even more enjoyable.

The biggest thing is me having to deal with being a switch, I prefer to spend my time as the Mistress, but I can't deny or hide the fact that I do also have some very strong submissive tenancies. I used to think that was a sign of weakness, that I didn't deserve to be a Mistress because of it, but over the last two weeks, being with Windrunner and her Queen, Jessie and Aki, other friends and playmates, I've finally not only accept the facts but have gotten to the point where I honestly don't care what others think of me, if they think I'm not Mistress material because I enjoy submitting as well, well that is just too bad, just means they are missing out on one hell of a ride ^.~

Well I will draw this post to a close here, and I hope to be able to share more soon.

~Hugz and kisses...and everything in between~

Thina

PS: Hi hi little kris =^.^=

The joy of being me...sometimes *giggles*

Okay so the title is a little self indulgent, and I know it's been a while since I've posted, and a lot has happened though this still may be a short post.

First off I want to say hello to the special few that continue to follow my writings and thoughts, I can be a bit weird sometimes I suppose, but seeing that people are actually reading always puts a smile on my face. I also know little Kris reads and I feel bad that myself and kitten haven't been around lately to visit her, but a lot has been going on with us and I know from reading her own blog she is no stranger to people getting busy in the world we call Second Life. Hopefully kitten and I, as well as my pony aki, will be able to visit soon and see her, so until then "HI KRIS!!!"

Alright moving on, I can safely say that I am truly fortunate, I have wonderful pets to keep me company, and wonderful friends that look out for me when I sometimes slip and am confused when it comes to my role as a Mistress...and the sometimes part comes in when I have to deal with people that think you can easily put a Mistress tag over your head and claim to be one, blindly charging in and closing off their mind when someone expresses concern for the way they do things, but ah well, such is life, and I have my friends and pets who are an incredibly interesting and intelligent group.

I do want to say that things with kitten continue to grow and improve, a few nights ago, I accepted a collar from her, showing her my love and trust of her, and allowing her to lock it, at first it was to satisfy some major submissive tendencies, but now, a few days later and thinking about it, it's more than that, it has a deeper meaning to me at least anyway, it represents me giving her my heart and my trust not just as my pet, but as my lover as well. She brings me such joy I can't even put it into the right words...if any such words exist that is. My other girls mean the world to me as well don't get me wrong, but kitten will always have my heart <3

Other Mistress' and Masters may think it silly to fall in love with their pet...well screw 'em my girls are more than just pets to me, they are each special in their own way, they all serve me with unwavering trust and devotion, and they each have a special place in my heart...ok kitten takes up most of that room, but they are all special and wonderful.

~Hugz and kisses...and everything in between~

Thina =^.^=

A new begining

Hmmm...I'm not sure how or even where to start, I know not long ago I had problems as a Mistress...my past submissive desires made me weak, not because I had them but because I would cave too easily, and it would put kitten in danger if I fell into the wrong hands as I've had happen in the past. Thankfully the last few days Miss Windrunner Constantine has helped mold me into the Domme that she and kitten see in me...and the one I know I am now. She has made sure I don't cave anymore and helped me build my confidence to the point where it doesn't matter to me what others think, all that matters are my girls...especially kitten. Miss Windrunner isn't the only one though, in one long nigh...err...morning, a very good friend, Lycra, talked with me, helped me think about a few things and what direction to go in. I know part of the problem regarding my submissive feelings is that I was always afraid that if i followed through on them I may not go back to being a Mistress...and I don't want that, because I know I would loose kitten as a result. Even aside from that though...I realized that no matter what, I still belong holding the leash instead of wearing the collar.

With all of that being said, yesterday was sort of a rebirth, almost overnight I went from being introverted to a point, even for a Domme, to suddenly just relaxing and taking things as they come and adapting to the situation as I need to. To start things off right I planned a little surprise for kitten, something that is normally out of character for me, I took her to sort of a bondage playground, since my personal dungeon isn't finished yet I've had to rely solely on my imagination, which was part of the problem since it would constantly give me headaches having to RP cold with nothing to give me inspiration...well other then kitten's twisted one ^.-

Okay no more side tracking, anyway, I took her there as a complete surprise as well as a reward for standing by me as I continue to learn. I know one of the things she wanted was just for me to play with her more, to not seem afraid around people and just 'use' her in a sense, when i pleased regardless of who was there (at least I'm nearly completely certain of that). I also know that she most likely never saw the trip coming, as I said until now it's very out of character, to take her to a public dungeon and use her with the possibility of anyone coming by and watching. Obviously I'm not going to tell you what I did to her...I'll leave that up to your imagination, but what I will say is that we both enjoyed it very much for various reasons.

I'll end things here, but look forward to more fun ^.-

~Hugz and kisses...and everything in between~

Thina

PS: Okay I'll share a pic of her in a little bit of bondage...enjoy ^.-

A Blah Day -.-

Ever have one of those days....you know the ones I'm talking about, your mad about something, but you don't know what it is so you just get madder because now your frustrated cause you can't figure out what your mad about or for what reasons. Well I just had one of those days, oh there were major ups to keep me from going totally insane, which I grants you is always just a sneeze away for me. The greatest part of the day I think would be when I had kitten in my lap later in the evening, sitting and talking like we do so often, learning more and more about each other...and what really got me going, got me happy and excited was when she told me that we spent a lot of time talking about what she wants, but we never talked about what I want *grins* the poor thing never saw it coming...and totally wasn't prepared for at least some of it. At any rate, we decided to take a stroll through my old limit card from when I was on the other end of the leash with a collar on my neck. We managed to find that a lot of our likes and dislikes, were very much the same, which nearly instantly opened up a host of ideas floating through my twisted little mind (I'd feel sorry for the poor dear, but it's too much fun to watch her squirm, and even more fun to make her blush though she always manages to pay me back for that one)

On the surface even I admit that it may seem like an odd relationship, like i give her too much freedom to wag her tongue *shivers at the thought and tries to concentrate again* but no matter what others see in how I handle her, there is never any question as to who is in charge. I give her freedom to be who she is because that is who I want her to be, no matter what I make her into, I still want her to be her. I constantly ask her how she is doing and what she is thinking, because I want to know what goes on in her head. Does that make me different? Probably not, I'm constantly meeting Mistress who treat their pets with great love and respect, what is different is that I don't shy away from showing it, so like I said maybe openly I am a little different than other owners, but at the end of the day, Kitten is mine, and we both know it, and there is never any reason to prove to anyone otherwise.

~Hugz and kisses~
Thina

Days go by

It's been a few days since my last post, I know in the beginning, when I first started this blog I planned on doing it often, but lately it seems either my energy is drained or nothing I want to say happens. I admit things have been a struggle at first, it's been a while since I carried the title of Mistress and have been slowing getting back to where I need to be. I know I've been causing kitten to worry about me because I was and to a certain degree am unsure of my abilities. I have gotten better, but there are still moments when I cave.

Late last night I had to give kitten a small punishment, nothing much, and certainly nothing unforgivable, but even then I was given reason to pause not because I was unsure of how to handle her punishment, but because we were joined by a friend who was throwing in what was most likely nothing more then suggestions but came off more as orders and I started to cave a little when I shouldn't have. Afterwards my friend and I had a brief chat in IMs and definitly not seeing eye to eye on punishment, she gives me the impression that you have to punish hard and severe right off so that there is not a repeat performance, I on the other hand have a gentler view I suppose. But the reason I am gentle in any punishment that I have to give to kitten is because I know what works, and it isn't harsh treatment or severe restrictions....besides I know she would love that ;) no what works for kitten is knowing she has disappointed me, and it's worse than any other punishment I could dish out.

Well as far as I'm concerned the incident of last night is in the past, and it's time to move forward, dwelling on things never helps, you just get through them when they happen and move on.

Until next time

~Hugz and kisses~
Thina

PS: A very special hello to little Kris, I know she checks in here, and a thank you as well that she follows along ^.-

A wonderful experience

The day has barely begun and already I've had the most wonderful time...though I could kick my silly self for not taking a picture of what I have to share. Both Jessie and I were in the Rubber Room playing with none other, the adorable little Kris' and as always it is a pure pleasure to see her, granted not near as happy as when I see my own Kitten's face but still, it always brightens my day to see her no matter how long it is. She is a very affectionate kitty and it's always a joy to not only see her, but to see her and my own kitty playing together, they look so cute together.

Seeing the two together made me think about where i am as far as being a Mistress, and what I want and expect from my pets...yes there are more then one, four to be precise...but no matter what Kitten will always be my number one pet, my little Kitten and I'll get rid of them all just to have her if I need to.

I would never say Kitten and I have had problems...far from it, it's been a constant stream of open communication as to what we want and desire, what is expected of me and of her. In the end she told me that all she really wants is to serve me faithfully, and with complete devotion, and to see me happy...what it seems I have a hard time communicating is that she already does, yes I have three other pets but she is the one I always am anxious to see.

We have both seen a great many things since coming to the Rubber Room, and to a point, I suppose that we both felt we needed to do it all and quickly to substantiate our relationship, but the reality is that though they are all things we would like to try, there is no hurry, it will happen when it does, and it will happen when I decide it to.

It seems everyday that goes by, I am more and more proud of my Kitten, despite what she may think I can always feel her devotion to me and I feel grow stronger with each day that passes, and I am constantly doing my best to be the Mistress she deserves.

~Hugz and kisses~
Thina

An overdue happy day

It's been a while since I've posted yet again, but after a certain period of time in one of my new favorite places, the Rubber Room, I simply had to write again. On several visits to RR Kitten (Jessie) and I have come across an adorable little latex clad kitty named Kris...ok not nearly as adorable as my Kitten but still, I always love seeing her and she is so well behaved and obedient, and very affectionate when she is given attention. Well that aside, Kris usually when I see her is nestled sweetly in another friends lap and I had my kitten on her knees in front of me, as i always do when we are there...she is just too adorable like that not to. At any rate, Rubbergirl, who had cute little Kris in her lap, left to do some shopping which would have left little Kris to roam around searching for attention (aren't all pets like that though). Well, since she was searching, I suggested that she sit next to Jessie which she eagerly did, especially after me petting her a little bit. For the next hour or so I was treated to the two cute kittens playing together in front of me and to be completely honest, it was so adorable that my heart just melted at the cuteness of it all.

Since Jessie suggested I check out the Rubber Room both her and I have met a long list of incredibly wonderful people both Dommes and subs, an I eagerly look forward to all of the adventures her and I may share.

Oh and here is a picture of the two cute kitties...with me barely in the background *giggles*

A new beginning

I know it's been a while, and I said I would expand on my feelings of my release...but after thinking about it, it isn't anyone's business but mine and Mystress' and I have no intention of this becoming a sob story, it is still painful but dragging it out will only make things harder so it is time, regardless of how i feel or how hard it is, to move on.

Many things have happened since my release, and I will talk about each in due time, the first was returning to a position where I am more fitting and comfortable and been handed the collar to a wonderful sub, one that is much better suited it would seem then I could have hoped to be. The second, which has happened last night, was joining the ranks of the Blood Evolutions Horde as a vampire, with my new pet at my side as my personal blood doll.

I should talk more on all of it, and I will, but I still have little energy to do so, though I will add a picture of me and my pet together, and I will continue again soon.

Thina

One of the saddest days of my life

Last night was without a doubt one of the saddest days in my life, either in rl or sl, and it was absolutely the worst day of my sl.

Through mostly my own actions, I have been released from my collar, I suppose a part of me saw it coming but that doesn't change how painful it is. I was unable to sleep at all last night, and am only barely able to function right now as I type. i feel like a terrible disappointment as a slave, I really did try hard, but deep down I'm too much of a free spirit, and much to dominant to serve anyone for more than a few weeks at best.

I really don't know what to say, it is still much too painful to even put the right words together. Mystress will always have a place in my heart, not once have I regretted being hers, but in the end I think there was just too much of a difference between us for it to last.

I will try to expand on all of this at a later time, hopefully when my head is clearer...well more so then it is now anyway.

Thina

Somebody Gag Me !!!

I don't know what my damage is, maybe it's the pressure I keep putting myself under with the school, club, and now the store. Or maybe because I keep trying to do it all alone, whatever the reason, because of it I keep opening my mouth and making things tense between Mystress and myself...or at least that is the impression I get anyway though I know she will tell me differently later. Every once in a while Mystress gives me a curfew, for my own well being so that I do not deprive myself of sleep, last night I has mentioned that it was hard to pull myself away as it seemed I have less and less time to myself to get things done that need to be finished. The email i received in response nearly made me fall out of bed, it was so cold in nature that for a brief moment I honestly believed she was releasing me, I panicked and signed into SL as fast as I could to try to get everything I didn't finish done. It seems every time I open my mouth I sound ungrateful when the opposite is really true, I could not, nor would I ever, wish for a better Mystress, there is nothing I wouldn't do for her, I want to be able to tell her my thoughts and feelings but it seems every time I do things just get worse...I honestly have no clue anymore to be honest, but whatever happens I'm not going to let her get away because of some stupid mistakes on my part.

Thina

Punishment

Well...it was bound to happen, and unfortunately it's happened more then I feel acceptable and yesterday was the latest, with my punishment being carried out tonight...and even that should have been taken care of last night but my inattention caused me to miss Mystress' orders right before she left.

Yesterday I had made what is in my eyes the worst mistake I ever could, and that was no greeting Mystress in a timely manner when she logged on, she waited for eight minutes before she came to me in my design studio and found me working, I had gotten so wrapped up in my projects that I completely missed that she had come on. I offered her no excuse as there was none to be given, and I am not the type to make them. Mystress was feeling lenient and was prepared to let it pass, after reading blog entries of a friend and her own girl she wants to make sure she is fair with me, though I already am well aware that I am extremely fortunate to be hers, and that she has been more fair to me then any I have come across. If not greeting her wasn't bad enough, only a few moments later she noticed that I was wearing my favorite pair of jeans...the fact that they are my favorite wasn't the issue, they are pretty cute, but in her presence I am required to wear skirts, and I was obviously not wearing one. I had been visiting a PG sim to learn more about building in Second Life and when I returned to my studio I had forgotten to change. Mystress had given me a little bit of money and ordered me to buy a skirt that would be allowable in a PG area which I did the second she left for the afternoon, unfortunately I missed her final command to remain nude in my studio for an hour and so did not complete that task.

To say that I was mortified by my actions is an understatement, the first two offences I was aware of, but I was not aware of the third until she told me of it tonight before she left for the evening. I could barely sleep last night because of the guilt that I had. During my own training, even though I was only punished once, i was taught that through a punishment my guilt will melt away, and my mind now makes that connection whenever I do something wrong. I had told Mystress of that one time which is why I believe she gave me a penance of sorts right before she left yesterday, to clear my mind so that I could move on, and like a fool I missed it. As a result Mystress had ordered me to hang from my frame nude for one hour, to make up for what I had done yesterday, as well as to write my thoughts both here and in an email to her.

Having put all of this down before me I feel a great weight lifted from me, it is true that doing this has made my guilt leave me, and I can approach tomorrow with a clear mind. Mystress, thank you for taking the time and patience to see to it that I not only serve you to the best of my abilities, but that my mind is also kept healthy and not broken. I am sorry for the mistakes that I have made, and will work even harder to ensure that they will not happen again...especially my mistake in not greeting you...twice is far too many times for that to happen.

~Hugz and kisses....from my frame~

Thina