Punishment

Well...it was bound to happen, and unfortunately it's happened more then I feel acceptable and yesterday was the latest, with my punishment being carried out tonight...and even that should have been taken care of last night but my inattention caused me to miss Mystress' orders right before she left.

Yesterday I had made what is in my eyes the worst mistake I ever could, and that was no greeting Mystress in a timely manner when she logged on, she waited for eight minutes before she came to me in my design studio and found me working, I had gotten so wrapped up in my projects that I completely missed that she had come on. I offered her no excuse as there was none to be given, and I am not the type to make them. Mystress was feeling lenient and was prepared to let it pass, after reading blog entries of a friend and her own girl she wants to make sure she is fair with me, though I already am well aware that I am extremely fortunate to be hers, and that she has been more fair to me then any I have come across. If not greeting her wasn't bad enough, only a few moments later she noticed that I was wearing my favorite pair of jeans...the fact that they are my favorite wasn't the issue, they are pretty cute, but in her presence I am required to wear skirts, and I was obviously not wearing one. I had been visiting a PG sim to learn more about building in Second Life and when I returned to my studio I had forgotten to change. Mystress had given me a little bit of money and ordered me to buy a skirt that would be allowable in a PG area which I did the second she left for the afternoon, unfortunately I missed her final command to remain nude in my studio for an hour and so did not complete that task.

To say that I was mortified by my actions is an understatement, the first two offences I was aware of, but I was not aware of the third until she told me of it tonight before she left for the evening. I could barely sleep last night because of the guilt that I had. During my own training, even though I was only punished once, i was taught that through a punishment my guilt will melt away, and my mind now makes that connection whenever I do something wrong. I had told Mystress of that one time which is why I believe she gave me a penance of sorts right before she left yesterday, to clear my mind so that I could move on, and like a fool I missed it. As a result Mystress had ordered me to hang from my frame nude for one hour, to make up for what I had done yesterday, as well as to write my thoughts both here and in an email to her.

Having put all of this down before me I feel a great weight lifted from me, it is true that doing this has made my guilt leave me, and I can approach tomorrow with a clear mind. Mystress, thank you for taking the time and patience to see to it that I not only serve you to the best of my abilities, but that my mind is also kept healthy and not broken. I am sorry for the mistakes that I have made, and will work even harder to ensure that they will not happen again...especially my mistake in not greeting you...twice is far too many times for that to happen.

~Hugz and kisses....from my frame~

Thina