Warning: Depression!!!

You know, it's been a very very long time since I've posted anything, and there are various reasons behind it; some good, some bad, and some just born out of laziness. It's December (I know, hard to believe, time flies so fast), and it's nearing two, well actually three different anniversaries for me. The happy fun time one is near the end of the month, the 22nd to be accurate, that was my Rez day, and thinking back when i first entered SL, so much has changed and I realized that I'll never see SL for the first time ever again. The wonder and amazement, the thrill of something new and exciting, meeting new people, learning to create, most of all meeting one of my closest friends ever not more than three weeks into my explorations into SL (yeah I'm looking at you Raze ;p). She has known me the longest of anyone I've ever known in SL, she has been there with me through my ups and downs, put up with a lot of my whining, complaining, and just general being a pain in the ass (sometimes probably literally lol). So I want to say a very special thank you to you in particular hun, after all this time I honestly cannot imagine SL without ever having known you and I'll always be eternally grateful.

The other two anniversaries aren't quite as happy an joyful, the first one I want to mention, while it's sad, wasn't at all unexpected in a way. Back in 2008, the very end of the year, (December 31st to be particular) my grandmother passed away, the last living grandparent I had. It was the day before my birthday that it happened and it really hurt, but also, like I said, it wasn't unexpected. Grandma had been getting on in years, and the human species only lives for so long, and she had a long life with wonderful kids and even more wonderful grand kids, so while it was sad it was also a relief that she didn't have to go through anymore hospital visits and was able to somewhat slip away in the night so to speak.

There is one more reason why my grandmother's death was harder to take at the time, which leads to the third anniversary to bring up (if your easily upset, now is a good time to get a tissue). A few weeks prior to my grandma's passing, on December 9th, the woman that I had pledged my undying love to, had planned on spending the rest of my life with, had passed away from cancer. Those that know me well know that I've held on to it for good and bad for the past two years. It's lead me into the deepest pits of depression at times, causing me to loose focus in my school work, to abandon good and long time friends, even now those friendships hang by fragile threads. Tomorrow is the second year of her passing and only now have I finally been able to move on to a certain point, I still have good and wonderful friends to help me, a new love entering my life helping me to move on and be able to open up my heart again, which I honestly thought was going to be sealed away for good. I have wonderful pets that serve me faithfully and give me their love and support on a daily bases (yes I'm a Mistress, don't like it, get over it then).

Even now as I sit here typing I can feel tears of both sorrow and happiness, I lost someone very precious to me, and I will always hold her in my heart, but I also have someone to help me through my clouded thoughts at times serving as a rock to anchor myself to. Cathy I know I do not say it nearly often enough, but you mean the world to me, you have always known what to say to put a smile on my face, and I'll always cherish the second our paths crossed.

Thank you all for your continued support and care, your the best I could ask for, and far more than I deserve.

Love,
Thina Mistwood

What a night!

Wow, what a night, starting off with a Neko party (sponsored by yours truly) I had told Iz (a totally awesome woman, I can't even begin to tell you) that I would dance for them sometimes since they've been having a hell of a time keeping dancers. Well I didn't plan on making my re entry into Second Life dancing tonight, nor did I figure on being put front and center on the...errm...front and center pole either. Now between you and me I think it was a conspiracy between; Michael, Kresh, and my girl Cathy to get me naked on stage in front of probably the biggest crowd I had sen at Hidden Taboo.

At any rate, after that came an even more fun and interesting time. It was time to take my dolly Samm's soul, which she was giving to me on her own (yes I'm a vamp too, deal with it *giggles*). At any rate, Cathy and I had spent about an hour and a half to two hours preparing for the event, making sure everything was ready, right down to my clothing for the evening and some last minute retexturing in the dungeon. I honestly can't begin to say how beautiful the event was, not only the biting, but also that three, yes three of my girls were there in addition to Samm, to witness the event, sweet little Akilina, adorable Cathy, and lovely yet zany Mobat. It was so wonderful that if I'm not careful I'll start to repeat myself any second ;p

I wish I could right more on both events...but it is 10am and I've yet to sleep so time to curl up and pass out...ni ni all =^_^=

~hugz and kisses~

Thina

A New Look

I like change...often, as any that have seen my wardrobe can attest, so I figured it was high time to give this old place a new look along with a new perspective on things.

To put it plainly and bluntly, I love my girls, and I love my friends, and I love the work that I do in Second Life. It is these things that bring me back day after day, and minute after minute. Drama in Second Life is like an asshole...and excuses, everyone has one and they all stink (yes I know, it's really crude and in poor taste but it is also unfortunately accurate). My point is, drama is unavoidable no matter how you try, the trick is in how you deal with it, and the people you have by your side when it creeps it's nasty little head in, and I have been fortunate to be blessed with some of the bes friends anyone would have right to ask for, and not only my friends, but also my girls, they give me their support and strength when I need it with out question and always (or at least usually) with their complete trust in my judgement.

All my love to my girls, and to my friends, and a special one to a certain kitten, Kris

Thoughts on custom building

Hmm...where to start and still be fair...

Ok well first off, both Cathy (one of my girls) and I had been commissioned to build first one then a second house. Now to be fair, we both new the owner of the first house so both of us felt there would be little issues in building it and we were right, it went smoothly, he was patient, and pointed out things that we may have missed to fix, over all a very good experience. The second house however *shivers* was for one of his girls...well temporary girls anyway. At any rate, it started off relatively simple, a basement playroom, a first living floor and second bedroom floor with maybe a small dance area on the roof....that was when it was simple, but it all snowballed from there. Next thing we knew it was supposed to be four floors, a bigger dance floor and a playroom floating high in the air. To top it all off she was in a rather big rush, and we were both working frantically to finish it and keep her relatively happy.

At any rate, this has taught me, and reminded me that never again will I make anything custom without a firm plan in place as well as being able to take breaks without having to constantly have someone in my IM box begging me to finish quickly.

Ok that's my rant for today, next time I won't be so bitchy I promise ^^.

~Hugz and kisses and everything in between~

Thina

Far too long

Holy hell it's been way too long since I took the time to scribble a thought or two down, and so much has been going on that I wouldn't even know where to begin so best to say that I'm back, hopefully writing a little bit more once in a while when I can.

First thing I do want to say though is a hugenormous thank you to all of my wonderful friends and my wonderful girls. All of you combined are what make Second Life worth logging in to and I thank for each and every one of you.

There is one more thing I want to say, before drawing this short post to a close. I finally feel that I am making good on a promise I made nearly two years ago, I've spent a lot of time working in the back of my store, creating a charity area to sell random items and accept donations towards cancer research, and here again is where all my wonderful friends and my special girls come in to play, because they have been so supportive and helpful at every turn. They've always let me nag them and put up with my ramblings cause that's just how wonderful they all are.

I look forward to seeing all of you soon, and will do my best to add a note or two here every once in a while.

~Hugz and kisses, and everything in between~

Thina Mistwood

Thing's change over time

It has been far too long since I've posted again, mostly because a lot has happened, faced with the reality that Jessie cannot see me as her Mistress anymore, as well as me coming to terms with being a switch. However despite what at first was negative or sad, I am happy to say I was so totally wrong.

Jessie and I are still together, and to a certain extent she still is my little kitten, even if it is only once in a while or a limited fashion, I am always happy to be around her, and I don't need to have her on my leash to be happy, just to have her companionship. She will always hold a place in my heart, and I know I have a small home in hers, somewhere ^.~

It is also coming up on having owned Aki as my pet for a month, and what a month it has been, she is always a joy to see, and granted there have been a couple of rocky spots, and mostly overreactions by me, but I can confidently say that I have enjoyed and continue to enjoy all that I share with her...and the fact that her and Jessie play together...and sometimes bind each other and wait for me, just makes it even more enjoyable.

The biggest thing is me having to deal with being a switch, I prefer to spend my time as the Mistress, but I can't deny or hide the fact that I do also have some very strong submissive tenancies. I used to think that was a sign of weakness, that I didn't deserve to be a Mistress because of it, but over the last two weeks, being with Windrunner and her Queen, Jessie and Aki, other friends and playmates, I've finally not only accept the facts but have gotten to the point where I honestly don't care what others think of me, if they think I'm not Mistress material because I enjoy submitting as well, well that is just too bad, just means they are missing out on one hell of a ride ^.~

Well I will draw this post to a close here, and I hope to be able to share more soon.

~Hugz and kisses...and everything in between~

Thina

PS: Hi hi little kris =^.^=

The joy of being me...sometimes *giggles*

Okay so the title is a little self indulgent, and I know it's been a while since I've posted, and a lot has happened though this still may be a short post.

First off I want to say hello to the special few that continue to follow my writings and thoughts, I can be a bit weird sometimes I suppose, but seeing that people are actually reading always puts a smile on my face. I also know little Kris reads and I feel bad that myself and kitten haven't been around lately to visit her, but a lot has been going on with us and I know from reading her own blog she is no stranger to people getting busy in the world we call Second Life. Hopefully kitten and I, as well as my pony aki, will be able to visit soon and see her, so until then "HI KRIS!!!"

Alright moving on, I can safely say that I am truly fortunate, I have wonderful pets to keep me company, and wonderful friends that look out for me when I sometimes slip and am confused when it comes to my role as a Mistress...and the sometimes part comes in when I have to deal with people that think you can easily put a Mistress tag over your head and claim to be one, blindly charging in and closing off their mind when someone expresses concern for the way they do things, but ah well, such is life, and I have my friends and pets who are an incredibly interesting and intelligent group.

I do want to say that things with kitten continue to grow and improve, a few nights ago, I accepted a collar from her, showing her my love and trust of her, and allowing her to lock it, at first it was to satisfy some major submissive tendencies, but now, a few days later and thinking about it, it's more than that, it has a deeper meaning to me at least anyway, it represents me giving her my heart and my trust not just as my pet, but as my lover as well. She brings me such joy I can't even put it into the right words...if any such words exist that is. My other girls mean the world to me as well don't get me wrong, but kitten will always have my heart <3

Other Mistress' and Masters may think it silly to fall in love with their pet...well screw 'em my girls are more than just pets to me, they are each special in their own way, they all serve me with unwavering trust and devotion, and they each have a special place in my heart...ok kitten takes up most of that room, but they are all special and wonderful.

~Hugz and kisses...and everything in between~

Thina =^.^=